My thoughts

I hate love.
I hate this feeling.
I hate doubts.
Why do I miss you so much?

btw… I might delete this whole blog.

wow… everytime… I dont knwo why… when it comes to you… I turn into a comeplete geek… and have no clue on how to conversate with the opposite gender.. its like you guys just suddenly sshifted and morphed into a different species all together with navtive language. XD
I’m usually so fly with teh ladies…. but when face to face against you… I melt away and go completely idiotic. this must be love. I love you.

Will you ever?

I don’t think you will
ever fully understand
how you’ve touched my life
and made me who I am.

I don’t think you could ever know
just how truly special you are
that even on the darkest nights
you are my brightest star.

I don’t think you will ever fully comprehend
how you’ve made my dreams come true
or how you’ve opened my heart
to love and the wonders it can do.

You’ve allowed me to experience
something very hard to find
unconditional love that exists
in my body, soul, and mind.

I don’t think you could ever feel
all the love I have to give
and I’m sure you’ll never realize
you’ve been my will to live.

You are an amazing person
and without you I don’t know where I’d be.
Having you in my life
completes and fulfills every part of me.

hey bloggie boy…. ya lonely? oi yeah M lonely as well so dont worry ur not alone. I’m so tire today.. I know.. all day song has been going on and off reminding me of her. THe most powerful one was…. Kelly clarkson - Becasue of You. I almost brokedown again… at work.. luckily no one saw. And I manage to regain my composure. Lol…. I was so tire I almost faint bloggie. Too bad there’s no one to share this all with except you. okie.. im heading off to bed bloggie.. im felings fatigue all of a sudden. these pills are not helpng out with my headaches arrghh. I wish.. I wish she would just come back into my life.. but.. you know bloggie.. I don’t think she will. oh well…. maybe one day she might… and I wish im still hereon that day she decides to.. oh.. btw I won a romantic cruise for two on the craibbean … I wish I can ask her and she would say yes.. but I doubt it… *sigh* guess these two ticket will just have to be thrown away. I dont know who to give it to. night.. bloggie boy.

I think this blog is dead…. no one reads it anymore right? good.
=] then I can safely jot down everything I want…
I’m sure no one reads this anymore anyway…. hopefully ont.. I need a place to let thinsg out and this si the place.. only person I know that used to read this blog was my baby, zhenni and maybe carina once… I’m sure they have stopped thought … hm… why am I talking to my own self.. oh blog..
I’ll just call u bloggie from now on. =] be my best friend okay?
sweet. no worry bloggie boy, I”ll talk to you everyday… even if its just a few words.. don’t feel alone my silent friend.