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Hey folks, mainly directed towards the people that actuall read this stuff. it’s been decades sice I posted and so sry for that. Its just things has been rocky lately. Well I’m back home finally. thxs to help from my frens such as Zack and Tiff ( im so sry tiff. but you know things between us could just never work out now. maybe if both of us weren’t seeing someone then perhaps it would have worked out. But we’re not and it wont.) And Zhenni, thxs for being there. It was fun you know. lol, and next time dont pour water on your stuff. ( water+ electroonic = bad :P ) Lol, yeah on now onward to a different subject. I’ve found out recently that the urge to Die is back…. yeah dont really know why but its there. Like last night, I seriously thought about overdosing myself with pills. And see the result. Would my internal organ be able to handle ir or would it be fried? Hell… I even thoght about just slitting the veins on my wrist ( upward not across. across wont kill you just hurts u) and see how long I can last and measure th amount of blood loss I need to endure before the many body functions would start to slur ( the medical facts say 25% blood loss is the extreme lvl at which the body starts underegoing changes.) And until I pass out eventually from blood loss. Then I thought… hey why not just take some sleeping pills… then go biking at a busy trafiic late at night. That would have been the mostpainfu bul not guaranteed to die though. I don’t know.
