weirded out.
so… let me start off by saying that I had another crazy dream. Yes, Kai you crazy pervert but this time… it was even more crazy than that first time…. I was.. in some kind of training school.. no it was more of a resort.
anyway im not in the mood to tell the whole story… so im going to get straight to the point. There was alot of sexs. Between me and my gf.. and other people. It was like we were in some crazy sex cult and they were converting us into sex crazed freaks.
and now for another totally different subject.
I think me and my gf are coming io a point where… I don’t lnow how to say it but… its tough. Its like that porcupine effect. the closer we get the more we hurt each other.. mentally. I don’t know why but its pains me deeply now knowing thaat shes not feeling well. And that she’s keeping stuff hidden. …5:45 am… what am I doing up at this ungodly hour. Must be erghh. w/e. I just want to tell her everything is alright… but that is not as easy as it sounds. Sometimes i think I’ve almost hit that breaking point where matters just seeems to make no sense at all…. logic are thrown out the window, tossed aside. I guess this is what you call “love”. what are the contradiction to love and what are the intradiction? I think im going crazy, er,,,, I catn even thinkl straight right now… nor type correctly… I think I’ll leave the post at this. g nites.
