My thoughts

alright..so it started oof so great today… but once I got home… everything went downhill..
first off… my asked to go into this forum… but wtf… it was so retarded there. Major turnoff that I discover today… -.- and then… it was suppose to be our time together but w/e. Some noob asked for her to tank them and yeah .. she did. Its like.. she could never say no. So yeah w/e. then after that… I waited and waited until I fell asleep for a bit… so there I was at the same spot… when i do… she’s off tanking another person… w/e… then an “ex” came callling and kncoking on my door. ITS fulkkking 1 am for godsake….
So I opened the door said “NO” gave her some money to catch the bus back home. so by this time im fully pissed. w/e.. I thought if she wants to tank than rather be with me then go ahead. I dont care. I don’t need her or anyone tonight anyway. Eh….. ceh. w/e. night

Lol…. here are some pic.. taken about two months ago .-. I’ve gotten chubby since then ;-;
I’m going to start and get back in shape >.< wish me luck pplz

PS: Im falling deeper n deeper everyday for this girl ;-;

hmm.. tonight… had a terrible start… I came home.. hell bent on apologizing for my stupidity the night prior. then to top it off we had a fight with one of our good friend. They weren’t talking and…. I was caught inbetween. … I’ll udate more later ontoday…. warui.. off to work nao.

so.. guess what. I met I ex. today. She was doing okay i guess, we chatted and stuff for a few brief mins and exchanged phone numbers. So i tell her that im making plans with my gf for winter vacation and she starts asking me a whole bunch of questions. After that she got all quiet…so I asked her who’s teh new hubby? And she wuldnt say… so w/e. I told her its cool and all.. then a few seconds later after I returned from getitng someting she left me a note saying ” Im not sure if I wanna talk to you right now… you think im a joke.. and that our relationship was a game” wtf?….. sure.. maybe when I was depressed over her I’ve said that but that was during my moment of grieving… I told her I was sorry for that GOD…. all I want to be is friends now …I wont ever figure out femsales nor will I understand them… jesus… Alll I want is for us to be friends but even that might not work. I don’t know what to feel right now. I really do wish to remain frens with her.. shes.. like a best friend to be.. why cant things be simple? why is it always complicated? Why wont anything ever goes my way.. And to top it off.. I spent a whole day waiting for her… and when she did appeared.. I had to go.. *sigh* today is just a bad day overall. G-nites… I need to sleep now.

ahehehe… last night was awesome.. with some misfortune here n there.. like z0mg… I’llpost some pic up soon of random event ya know cause.. i might as well since uhh I have a digi cam that I bought wiht my own $$$ and im not even using it now lol. x.x;; heck u might get lucky and find or try to find me in some of those pics lol. :P GL.. and yes… lately.. I’ve been having bad dreams.. wet dreams >>; Like this time.. it was me… and my gf <333. ahahhhaha…. ahem right .. I <3 her. bbl :} and gasp. MY mage si 5x nao w00tage. I’ll post his uberness on here also :)

hmm, today started out fine.. and last night was great…. I <3 girl. Anyway… we’re playing pt.. and all of a sudden.. I hear a lightnning… followed by a thunder 10 sec after. Guess its really close by.. and perhaps afterr 10 more mins.. it started raining. Btw, rain makes me gloomy. So… right I got gloomy after that.. so Im feeling pretty much down and alone right now.. I wish I can talk to you.. but… I dont think that is gonna happen so.. meh. Whatever happens happens. I want to hold you in my arms tonight and keep u there for as long as possible…. perhaps never letting u go. *sigh* w/e this is going no where… and it looks like another lonely night for me again.. g-nite.